bloodpython

growing up.

Fri, 11 Apr 2008 04:55:00 GMT

As I get older and come to more milestones in my life, it seems that getting older isn't exactly a bad thing. Sometimes it involves making stuff up in situations that seem alien. Sometimes it involveslearning to cope. Other times, it's everyone else that is having a hard time dealing with it. Since I've moved to school, gotten my ears pierced and gauged, gotten a tattoo and gotten a job, it seems that I'm not the one who's having a hard time adjusting. MY parents seem to be having a hard time getting used to it. But there comes a time in every parents life where they need to start to let go. I understand that i still need some support, but it's my life and choices. I can handle the repercussions of my actions.
I understand that my dad doesn't support many of my life's choices, but I think I'm doing fairly well. I've made the decission to commit to a life without drugs and alcohol. When most kids my age are out getting smashed and high or doing whatever the hell they want, I'm sticking to the clear road. Why associate with something that could diminish my chances of accomplishing my life goals. I want to do a lot with my life, and I don't want to let anything get in the way of that. not saying that drinking alcohol automatically dashes all of ur hopes and dreams. I've chosen to live a clean life, I've seen what drugs and alcohol can do to a person, and I don't want to let that happen to me or be associated with that sort of thing. I want to graduate from college, go on to grad school, become a teacher, have my own house some day and keep reptiles. I'm not trying to change the world, i'm not so sure that one person can do that. But if i could get through to a new generation of kids and let them know, hey you don't need to drink to be cool, I think I could be a pretty good role model.\

To many people today rely on what others think of them. Just because 1 or 2 or 10 people say ur cool, doesnt make it so. Just because 1 or 2 people say ur not cool doesn't make that right either. I feel like, if your always trying to fit in and please everyone but urself, ur gonna end up unhappy and uncool. You can't please all the people all the time. I'd argue that it's better to just be yourself and disregard what people say. People are imperfect, by nature. So if someone says i'm uncool, they could be right or they could be wrong. why should i care? Life is more about how i feel about myself. Don't let them tell me how to live my life. fads are over rated. Everytime you think you've caught up with one, it becomes obsolete and your not cool anymore. everyones chacing cool, but who ever really catches it? Drink this and you'll be cool(poser), wear these pants and you can hangout with us(haha those are so last week), hangout here on thursday [friday, saturday] nights and you'll be awesome(not really). people never read the fine print. Once you think you're there and you've finally been accepted, the rules are changed and it's a whole new game. I don't see the point of chasing them around and playing their stupid games.

To many people spending their lives trying to please others. All my life, I've been trying to impress my dad. 'hey dad, i got a B+ on my test today'.....'what happened, no A?'......'hey dad, check it out, I cleaned out my room and the dinning room too'....'look at this kitchen it's a pig pen, and this living room, you couldn't een live in here'...no matter how hard you try, they just wont accept it. every now and again there's a good job or a congratulations, but most of the times it's followed by a try harder. It's a poisonous relationship. If i keep trying and trying, I'll drive myself insane trying to meet his expectations, because they can never be met.

I'll post more later...
keep ur eyes peeled for a short story on the way as well...

hectic...

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 05:23:28 GMT

Been a while....
Life's been pretty hectic. Packing up from one school, applying to another. Christmas season....yea. In the works of withdrawing from UMASSD and Enrolling in BSC....I'm gonna be commuting from home...so another semester in Randolph X_x...I took down some the posters in my old room(which is now amy's room) one of the saddest things...idk y but it just hit me really hard that I'm not a kid n e more. that I can't hold onto everything forever. I still have a lot to take down though.so yea about bsc..I think that the move will be good for me. Get's me away from all the crazyness, unnecissary drinking and drugs and whatever else. At the same time, I'll miss my roommate and the couple friends I had made there. Ontop of that, Applying for a job...and working on getting my ears pierced...horrible luck with that(long story). I havn't had much time to just sit down in a quiet room and think. Havn't had much time to just sit and reflect. Or rather, I havn't made time for it. I think that it's getting to me... I feel like i get annoyed easier and it doesn't feel right. It feels almost as though winter is 1/2 over, but it's really just begun. Too much snow and sleet and rain and crap...it needs to be summer again.
Me and kim just had our first christmas and our 7 month. Everything is amazing between us. We make each other very happy and have "done the impossible" had a viable and successful relationship throughout the first semester of college. It wasn't easy, we've over come a lot. But we can work through just about anything. And we couldn't be any more happy about it. I got 2 B+'s, 1 B, 1 B- and 1 C for first semester....not the best, but I think i did prettyy good.
Only a couple more weeks until my b-day(going to see TBDM, still havn't bought my tickets). 19...not really n e more important birthdays for me after 20. Since I don't drink, 21 isn't reallyy gonna matter. It's wierd to think that I'm almost 20. It feels like yesterday I was a stupid awkward freshman. I really hope that the real world isn't like college. people are stupid and dont know when to say no. I understand that some people can drink and not loose control, but the majority of people that I've seen can't or wont. It just doesnt make any sence to me. not even going to continue on that.
Lizz died while I was at UMD. Had him 8+ years. Best water dragon ever. We picked up chip, the lil Water Dragon a couple weeks ago as well. He's mischievious, but interesting.Ornamental is huge. I'm still looking for a place to get my tattoo. One place said that it'll prolly cost $450. kinda steep, but if i want it done right, it'll prolly cost a lot.
I think I'll write in here again soon...idk..
Rob

"I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move.The winters soo cold, summer's over too soon. Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow. I've got some friends, some that I hardly know. And We've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world."-Rise Against

"We do feel alone. That place in my mind. Is that space that you call mine?"-Slipknot

relaxx...

Tue, 30 Oct 2007 06:32:40 GMT

Picture someplace, any place. Someplace where you can relax.

It's a cool fall morning. It's not terribly cold outside, but you can see your breathe in the air as you exhale. The fog that overpowers the surrounding landscape surrounds you and envelopes you into it. The sounds of early morning birds and the rustling of a few squirrels are the only noticable sounds. The birds seem to have been awake for hours, quickly darting through the air and up onto their perches. The squirrels are digging through the crunchy autumn leaves in desperate search of elusive acorns. It doesn't seem that the sun has risen yet, but you can see your surroundings clearly. The fog seems to float above the ground as if there is an invisible forcefield holding it there. It moves and flows throughout the area in and around you. You watch it float around and over your open palm, but never touching. As you procede, you notice that the ground is no longer littered with the crunchy leaves that make the familiar loud crunches under your sneakers. Instead, your steps seem almost silent atop the thousands of pine needles. The golden slivers carpet the ground and overcome the leaves. Your hands are starting to get cold, so you place them in your pockets. Your pockets provide a warm shelter and you continue along your path hands in pockets. No one else seems to be awake, and you feel like your the only person on the entire planet. No hustle and bustle of people hurrying from here to there. No rush to go where your heading. The stress of the day slip off of you like a raindrop off of a rooftop. Allowing all of your muscles to relax and letting the tension radiate out allowing yourself to succomb to the feelings your having. Going through your mind and addressing the things that are bothering you and thinking of possible solutions. Thinking of the cause of the feelings and what you can do to resolve them. Just allow these quiet minutes to reflect on yourself and how you can become a better person. Hold a door for someone, share a pencil, compliment someone. Small things can make a big diffrence. As you continue on, the fog seems to disipate and as it does, the familiar sights of cars and people come into view. They'll never know what you just saw, but you know that today is your day to do good in the world.

"The way you lived your life, it mesmerizes me."-CKY

"You painted a picture, happier than I can afford."-Sugarcult

"This is halloween, this is halloween. Halloween, halloween."-The Nightmare Before Christmas

"A simple sound, a heavy sigh will win the whole world over."-CKY

"Am I still you charm or am I just bad luck?...Lets unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words...If love is a labor, I'll slave 'till the end."-Rise Against

"Don't know, what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone. Sometimes, I need someone to say 'You'll be alright, what's on your mind?'...Sometimes, I miss knowing someone's there for me and feeling free."-Yellowcard

"This heart, it beats, beats for ONLY YOU!"-Paramore

I Love You Babe ♥
You mean so much to me. I love being with you and getting to hold u in my arms. Getting the sweet gift of a kiss and a warm embrace, you make my heart flutter and make me all giggly like a lil boy with a crush. I love you baby, thank you. 5/24/07 ♥

Rob

Fountain Of Youth?....

Mon, 20 Aug 2007 06:19:31 GMT

What is the key to living as long as possible? What's the secret to spending the most amount of time in this life? How could I live forever?

How bout asking some other questions...like... How can I make the most out of the time I have? What could I be doing to make myself and others more happy? Is someone in need of help, that I could help?

I drove the backstreets of quincy. Cool, brisk, almost cold air wizzes by. A cool August evening, the sun had just set and cars comming towards me had blazing lights like small suns trapped in plastic boxes. In my mind I'm going over how the days events had unfolded. Maybe not perfect, but then again how many days are? Overall a decent day. So many different feelings and thoughts in one short time. I can't seem to overcome the question, What am I doing with my life. People always say "Ya know? I wanna do something meaningful with my life." but then never make any effort to do that.

I continued on my path, no particular destination.. Just going. My own small suns shown upon a tree. Nothing out of the ordinary. But it struck me. Semi-concealed by the surrounding homes, it seemed a portrait of pre-historic rebellion, raising out of our cement coated world. It twisted and contorted in an upward spiral with vines and leaves covering it's coarse outter "shell". Just for the moment, it seemed like a cave-man in a chrome room. Unsure of it's surroundings and just distinctly out of place.

The lights had shown on it for a second, maybe two tops. To think that it has been on this earth longer then I have still baffles me. I think I'm so damn important. going out living my life, havin a good day or a bad day. In the grand scheme, it wont really matter whether i ate a snickers or a payday....wether i got there 5 min early or 10 min late. This tree is sitting there watching us come and go. Births, children growing, moving out and becomiung adults, then dieing. It's watched them with their ambitions and goals pass it by a million times. It grows slowly but surely everyday. Slowly expanding it's reach towards the sky, making it's way toward it's goal. Never giving up.

My trapped orbs of energy pass over this portrait and continue on their journey. I'm left with so much to contemplate...I cant organize it all in the right ways. But I want to be like that tree. Slowly working my way towards my goal, no matter how far away it is.

Lyrics...

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 18:03:38 GMT

"Eye Of The Storm"-Killsiwtch Engage

"After all this time
I stand by you
Through all of the years
I've been with you

Through pain and affliction
With every addiction
I will never let you down

I will live by this code!
Never surrender
You and I are one

Through the eye
Of the storm
You are never alone
Even through, the shadows
You are never alone

After all this time
Still you struggle
Even words of love
Ring so hollow

I have no regrets
I have no remorse
And if you falter
I wont let you down

Through the eye
Of the storm
You are never alone
Even through, the shadows
You are never alone

Come on

Together we stand
Never fall
No matter the trial
We will overcome
Together we stand
Never fall
No matter the Trial
We will overcome

Through the eye
Of the storm
You are never alone
Even through, the shadows
You are never alone

Never
Together we stand
Never fall
No matter the trial
We will overcome
We will overcome"

"Do You Think Dallas Is Still In The Slammer?"-Flee The Seen

"Your sitting right across the room
I wish you only knew.
How Beautiful,
You are!...
And you're not alone."

"Killing Lonliness"-HIM

"With the venomous kiss you gave me.
I'm killing lonliness.[killing lonliness]
With the warmth of your arms you saved me.
Oh, I'm killing lonliness with you."

"Right Here In My Arms"-HIM

"She is smilin' like heavens down on earth.
The Sun is shining, So bright on her.
.....
She'll be right here in my arms, So in love.
She'll be right here in theses arms she can't let go.
She'll be right here in my arms, So in love.
She'll be right here in theses arms she can't let go."-HIM

so yea, about that....

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 05:53:53 GMT

whole last post is now null and void. I realised some things and I'm done with waiting for this to happen before i do something. Try to live it up. Ya never know when your time will be up. so why wait? take adavantage of life and try to live it up.

AKA me and kim r now dating and we make each other very happy. screw college and it's disruptive ways.

Today was my "graduation party". turned out to be me and ty hiking around in ponkapoag. then Evans, Abby and Greg showed up. good times. then danny and kim and everyone went to gordo's for moonbounce...yeap yeap. it was fun. but through it all, i can't believe high school is over. graduation is in less then 10 hours.

I'm so mixed. I'm so excited that school is over and happy that i dont have n e more high school bs to deal with. but on the other hand...right at this moment, i just feel like cryin. idk y. there isnt one thing that's bothering me. idk. it's just wierd. just wierd.

Rob

"Follow me there. A beautiful somewhere. A place that I can share with you."-YellowCard

" I can not remain without you. Without you, all my life is lost."-Inked In Blood

Sat, 21 Apr 2007 04:25:51 GMT

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yea...

randomness..

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 02:37:45 GMT

So this is just a random blathering. Just a rant about nothing that is completley meaningless in comparrisson to my others.
The weather outside = crappy. So I'm stuck inside, and it's cold in my house and there isn't really much to do. I totally bombed pre-calculas last quarter. 58. ugh. And I love how my entire highschool carreer is being judged on this one grade. all my parents can eat, breath, or sleep is a failing grade in pre-calculas. I'm still passing for the quarter, but they cant get over that one grade. blah.
To go right along with that, my parents feel that it's not wise to make an investment in my going to college. They feel that because of that one quarter grade, that i'm gonna flunk out and that im a waste of their money. So im not so sure im going to college.yea. way to be a burnout.

Rob

neglected...

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 02:21:17 GMT

Yea..I've kind of neglected my Lj, the last couple of weeks...but I have to get some stuff of my chest...not in this post...but there will be one to come soon. but it's gonna be private cause im not quite sure how i feel about it. so yea.... I'm off to contemplate stuff.
Rob

-<3+

yea...

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 13:33:13 GMT

I wanna make a shirt....on the front it will say

Sorry Vegans...

and the back will say...

...I don't date people with eating dissorders!

ROFL
Rob

So yea...

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 02:57:20 GMT

Rob's kinda lonley. Sometimes i just wish i had someone to cuddle with. I miss just sittin on the couch and either having someone in my arms, or being in someone elses. I'm a cuddlebug. On an upside, it's starting to stay light out past 4pm :-). summer isn't that far away. I miss it! i need a job->money->Skateboard. yea.
::hug::
Rob

An Attempt....

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 04:59:38 GMT

So it's definatly been a while since I posted in here. I've been accepted to Unity College in Maine(my first and favorite choice). I'm very very ready to be moved out and away from the rents. they r starting to bother the living hell out of me. I'm very over the cold weather and ready for summer. Relationships aren't really a good idea at this point in time with so much changing. a lot of hurt can come out of it. and idk if it's worth it right now.

Around every corner is something new.
Everyday i see a series of events...and an array of things that go on that are baffling. and today i was just standin in my bathroom. Just took a moment to breath and think. didn't really focus on anything spacific, just let my eyes wander. and then i came upon the mirror. and ended up looking into my own eyes for about 5 min. It's amazing how we can "tell the truth" or see a persons "true intentions" by looking them in the eye. But when i looked myself in the eye today, i didnt feel any of that. It was more confusion. more questions than answers. What is thought? And how is it i can 'think something through'?What is this state of being? What I'm seeing right now, is it actually occuring? If our brain controls touch and pain and everything, can we find a way to think past it? Is there a way to detach yourself from everything that is now? Why am I here? and the other cliche ones too. It seemed so confusing.

Then I thought about Biology. I'm not sure why, but i thought of how small the things we'r made up of are. and how in the 'smallest' task we do, we'r actually creating massive change in ourselves and our surroundings. But we dont take that into considderation and i'm not quite sure that we should. I mean we could be taking it for advantage. but what is like other then taking opertunities for advantage and having fun with it.If we sit here and think of all the possible outcomes of our future actions, those actions will never happen and they'll remain another possibilty, instead of a reality.

True Love and Acceptance.
So many people claim that they 'love all people' regardless of race, background, lifestyle choice, clique or any other variable u want to drag into this. But in reality, everyone holds prejudice. I'm not saying it's okie or that it's good, cause in most cases it's not. People are misleading when they say, i have nothing against them. but then would never even consider spending an afternoon with some one of that ::insert catagory here::.
Oh, I have nothing against gays.
But I don't want anything to do with them
Oh, Colored people are perfectly fine with me.
But I don't want my son/daughter dating/marrying one.
I am a very religious person. The Bible says that I should love everyone so I do.
But, the bible also teaches me that i Should shun/drive out anyone who doesn't fit a certain mold.

I really just dont want to hear it anymore. You are a hypocrit, You dont like ::insert a catagory::'s because you've been given false information and lead up on un-educated tradition.
Some people say to respect your elders. Sometimes your elders are plain out wrong. Sometimes they breed more hate into our lives then we could create in a lifetime. The bible is a double edged sword. yes you can learn your basic morals from it with stories. But, in general it's a load of made up crap that to many people take seriously. People let it engulf them and a lot of the stories are telling you to hate people for one reason or another. People barely get along as it is. We don't need another book telling us who to hate.

If people took all the hate their putting out right now today, and put out love instead. Helped out someone in need, did something to help someone, anyone. I think that a lot of the problems that we find today wouldn't be as "detrimental"(sp?).

Sometimes the smallest smile could save someone
Everyday people have to deal with a miread of problems in their everyday life and they just can't seem to find a reason to smile. But if you get the ball rolling, by smiling at someone, it's contagious. You could be brightening someones whole day. Sometimes all a person needs is aknowledment, to know that someone knows ur alive and cares. Sometimes a day could be made by ur smile. believe it or not, a smile has made my day before. one smile. one 1/2 second of that persons day made all 86,400 seconds of mine.(yea i broke out the calculator).

Just think about it.

Rob

RANDOM DREAMS!

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 16:35:40 GMT

Okie...well the first one.... I went to my ex's ccollege dorm room...and i was like TAB what'r u doing here?....and she was just like...oh whatever...but she was at UMASS Dartmouth...so i started walkin around the campus because i thoght i'd be a cool kid and do that.....And i randomly bought a skateboard.,...i went to the cafeteria and there was this broken table.....and it was kinda like a teeter totter...so me and this kid jumped on at the same time... and we thought it'd work...but we just broke the table in 1/2....so i was like...DAMN!....and then....I walked over to my mum and picked up the skateboard I bought and it like broke...i wasn't even riding it....the end just broke off in my hand and i was like...damn i just bought this thing...stupid thing.. and then i wasd like skrew this...and i started walking away...when i saw my friend's who skateboard outside....i was like...WTF are you all doing here?! and they were like....we'r here to see GWAR! and I was like O_O GWAR'S PLAYING!? and they all sayd yes...so i ran over to the place where the concert wass....and it was in some random alley inbetween two buildings...but it was a big alley...not one of those 4' wide ones...and the stage was on one side and the crowd was gathering on the other....so i ran up...and then one of the dude's from GWAR was like...Hey...we need someone to play guitar...canh u? and i was like O_o Sure...but I then realised that idk how to play n e of there songs...but i just went backstage and there was GWAR playing from a radio...and some random lady sitting in the corner painting a guitar with the whole band on it...so i started to get into costume...so i went to pull my sock up..but it had a hole in it...and my big toe popped out of the sock...and i was like O_O AHHHH and i pulled it off then i woke up and it was like 7 am lol

Then i went back to sleep.....and i dreamt that i was just riding this random BMX bike down North Mainstreet in my town... And I was just enjoying my leisurly ride when all of a sudden i look and over on the sidewalk is a bear...like a BIG ASS BEAR!! and so i stopped....and it kept on walking...so i was like O_o maybe he's just a crazy bear....so i started to ride again and he started chasing me...so i rode faster and he kept catching up...so i jumped off the bike and picked the bike up and like swung it at him....and he walked in the other direction....so i got back on my bike and he started chasing me again....and this time i just jumped off my bike and srwung it at him...and by now, a group of ppl where gathering around to watch this stupid bear....and i was like...U IDIOTS!! THAT'S A BEAR!!! RUN AWAY...and they were all just like looking at it...and it didn't attack them...so i was like WTF maybe it was just a coincidence...so i started to ride back towards my house....
bloodpythonMA: but then he started chasing me again so i like flipped out and jumped off my bike and ran towards these random buildings...and my friend jess was just walking in the parking lot and i was like RUNNNNN RUNNN!!! and she was just walking like an emo kid and the bear was like walking up to her and i was like O_O RUN!!!!! and the bear like reared up on it's hind legs...and just grabbed her hand and walked with her into the building i was in front of...i was like ????????? and then i woke up and it was 10 am....X_x

Headache...

Tue, 02 Jan 2007 06:18:29 GMT

I have a headache, So I'm just gonna post some lyrics for now....
"I think we have an emergency...So are you listening,
So are u watching me?...
it's really not your fault.
When no one cares to talk about it. Talk about it.
Cause I've seen love die, Way to many times.
When it diserved to be alive.
I've seen you cry way to many times,
when you diserved to be alive."-Paramore

"I've got a bad feeling about this,
I've got a bad feeling about this.
You kept still until the long drive home.
You slept safe and close to the window."-Taking Back Sunday

"Am I loud and clear or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer or are we just getting more lost?...
If love is a labor, I'll slave till the end...
Winter's so cold, Summer's over to soon..
I've got some friends, some that I hardly know.
And we've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world."-Rise Against

"I can't tell if your laughing.
Between each smile there's a tear in your eye.
There's a train leaving town in an hour.
It's not waiting for you, and NEITHER AM I."-Rise Against

"There's always something to be going wrong.
The path I walks in the wrong direction.
There's always someone fuckin' hangin on.
Can anybody help me makes things better.
Your tears don't fall and crash around me.
Her concious called, to guilty to come home."-Bullet For My Valentine

"Today I'm dirty, I want to be pretty.
Tomorrow I know I'm just dirt...
We'r dead, We know just who we are."-Marilyn Manson

"Beat me up. Beat me down.
Mess me up beyond all recognition.
For what it's worth, I'd do it again.
With no consiquence I will do it again."-Mindless Seld Indulgence

"Way away away from here I'll be.
Way away away so you can't see.
How it feels to be alone and not believe, Anything."-Yellowcard

"I just need to start listening.
And I will hear you, I will hear you.
Take my hand, come home.
You were never alone.
And I love you, And I forgive you."-Flee the Seen

"Is it so hard to believe,
That our hearts,
were made to be broken by love?"-HIM

"After this,
The
Rest
Is
All
Bullshit"-Mindless Self Indulgence

Rob

sooo...

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 06:01:36 GMT

"We cut without a knife.
We live in black and White.
Your just a parisite.
Now, close your eyes and say goodnight.
You better get ready to die.(get ready to die)
You better get ready to kill.(get ready to kill)
You better get ready to run, cause here we come.
You better get ready to die."-Andrew W.K.

PWNED in the face

"When it's time to party...
We Will Party HARD!
...We do what we like, and we like what we do."-Andrew W.K.

So yea...yesterday was x-mas...im kinda over it...i need ppl to hangout with...Rob's lonley and needs hugs. it's really cold out...And i hates the cold...but under the blankets it's nice and warm..I gots an iPod...still havnt figured out how to set it up completely.....X_X. oh well.So many ppl i havnt seen and need to chill with...aka Christina, Jess, Ty, Bridget, Sonia, Evans, etc.

Snakes r good...makin a trip to regal in the next couple days to pickup deb's mice and to indulge my snake geek-ness. I got a pretty sic forest photography thing....it's cool...I did some sic drawings...but most of them r getting given away...blarg...This 1 squid I drew was....O_O AWESOME....and I can't get them to come out that awesome n e more...blarg...oh well ill keep trying.okie okie...im done boreing you.
Rob

So yea...

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 03:07:17 GMT

X-Mas season well upon us....1 month to the day from my 18th B-day....things r okie i guess. My car esta en the shop and I'm dreading using my parents cars. O_o I'm sooooooo ready for college to be here. I need to fill out my college Apps. get that over with...so i might get an answer for my b-day.

On a good note...ALL 3 of my snakes ate small rats the other day :-D. I got a neww hoodie...but it unzips....THE OTHER WAY!!!?!?!?! Confuses me to death. and then a lil bit to the right. idk.

My dad hates gay people but he wont admit it. He doesn't like goth ppl, He doesn't like piercings, tattoos, rock and roll, people who rnt religious, ppl who accept other people as people. So basically he doesn't like n e thing That my life will ever be. So I'm pretty much through trying. My 18th B-day is quickly approaching....I'm another day closer to being "on my own". Which is also a bit scary...but not scarier then living at home for another 4 years. :-/ I'm going out of state for X-mas....So I wont have access to a computer until after X-mas...Tomorrow night is my last night....

Rob

Reccommendation stuffss.... just read...

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 03:29:24 GMT

TAKE A second and just read...it's almost interesting..

When the phrase “Marching to the beat of a different drum.” Comes to mind, most of the people that know me would agree, I’m marching the opposite direction as well. When having group discussions, I always seem to bring up the “out-of-the-box” idea that no one wants to question. I’m always the one that is questioning tradition and coming up with different ways of approaching it.
Junior year I was placed in Mr.Brearley’s Theology class. I wasn’t thrilled about taking theology, but by the end of the year, it was my favorite class. We had thought provoking discussions and I was usually the one fueling their self-reflection. Topics like Poverty, Abortion, Religions (in general) and Capital Punishment were at the forefront of my mind. Questions that I struggled with in my everyday life came up as well. “Why are we here? What’s the point of a religion that’s exclusive? Where do I stand in today’s society? Why do people act harshly towards others? Can people really be changed?” Those were some questions that I looked into and thought about. They consumed my spare time and I eventually found some ways to convey how I felt and shared what I found with classmates and anyone who would listen. What I’ve found is that people should be loved and shown respect. As long as you’re a human being, you deserve my respect and I deserve yours. The human time scale is so small, and (I know that it’s cliché, but) we should make the best of it. We should live so that when we die (because everyone dies eventually) we could look back and say, I had an amazing time.
By being aside from everyone else, I’ve also run into a few problems. Talking out against socially accepted tradition isn’t the best way to make friends for one. Similarly people sometimes have trouble relating to what I’m trying to explain. Because I don’t follow the same though process as others, others often find it hard to follow.
I enjoy helping out in science related labs and workshops. I have also worked with science teachers with up after labs and workshops too. Like I’ve stated before, I try to do my best in all of my subjects, so when one starts to lag, I focus on it more which puts fluctuations in almost all of my grades. I try to spread out my time so that I get to everything, but I usually don’t have time or other plans come up.
I’ve had a lot of time to think over my views of life, and I’m fairly certain I’ve found a balance. With the beginning of college quickly approaching, I look at it as a foreign land. That is, I can never know what I’ll encounter until I explore. The more I explore and learn, the more I can grow as a person and possibly make a few friends on the way. I’m looking forward to every experience and bump in the road and I feel that I’m ready.

Rob

So....yea....

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 02:53:20 GMT

I'm not gonna continue my rant...just state that I'm having trouble keeping everything together. When ever i put focus on a spot where i need it, another place slacks out. I've got all my X-mas shoping done...except for ty. The Black Dahlia Murder Owns me!....it's true...

Starting a band. Possible band names? Simply Put, Near Miss, Dead and Done. etc. suggestions? It's gonna be metal/hard rock. Drummer/Bassist/singers needed. let me know.

Rob

What's on your mind?....

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 03:11:43 GMT

So yea...havn't written in here in a while...How'r things going? I'm not quite sure....Applying to college isn't fun...but w/e. So yea...it definatly snowed the other day X_X I hate it...makes me wanna move near the equator.....Never seee snow again in my life. I'm still trying to feel out my path in life. X-mas is kinda close and I'm not too excited....I'm more psyched for my 18th B-Day....January 19th....FRIDAY NIGHT!! There shall be glow sticks and music and pizza(prolly some buffalo chicken pizza XD) And cool stuff like that. Yea..I'm not a creep....I'm just wierd...I'm still curious as to how I make friends...People r so afraid to step out of their box and just be themselves...and I'm just out there...and idk...security issues? I dont feel safe like it's all about to fall on me...but u dont see that....cause laughter is the best remedy. I'm just waiting for things to be really open...for ppl to know me....and to see what the response will be. Life is like an experiment. And u never know the outcome unless you know all the info. You don't know some info and you'll get a result u weren't expecting. and sometimes the info u get, tears you apart....and that's what I'm waiting for...to be torn. Today has been a major flashback and it makes me sad...so tomorrow(well the next 26 hours) will be different...and strange and I'll be lost and drained and incomplete.
I'm considdering starting a band....after going to this concert with local kids my age...i can be in a band...but it's gonna be like hard rock/metal/polka...j/k bout the polka part. I'm just so consumed with like getting everything done idk if i'll have time for it.
Being strapped for time succkkssss. And I try to stay focused but it usually doesnt work...and i end up doing some random task and then going...oh yea i was doing my homework or dishes or something. blarg!
I hope to be back on this to finish my rant...
Rob

Laifism...

Sun, 26 Nov 2006 16:12:34 GMT

My new Religion... check it out.

http://groups.myspace.com/laifism

Apparently I'm gay?..

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 02:58:10 GMT

Yea, My dad found out what BAGLY is tonight...He wasn't very happy about it. And his reasonning is, If u go to a "gay dance" you gay. I like how he says this after i just went out on a date w/my g/f last night. And he claims that he doesnt hate gay ppl, but he would never hangout with them. How he says their not his enemy but he doesnt want to befriend them. And he told me to just "leave him the hell alone" X_x When ppl are ignorant like he is, it makes me feel like there's no hope for me. I'm not part of the majority, I try to be friends with nice ppl. I dont care if u r gay, black, white, asian, 1/2 dog, goth, prep, nerd, religious or the anti-krist. As long as your nice, your cool with me. Why can't more ppl be accepting? If u wanna run a dictatorship where yourlifestyle is the only one aloud, leave america. The US is supposed to be the people's land. Where ppl can be what they want to be, make their dreams come true. And who is someone else to tell u that ur dream can't come true. So what if ur dream is to be gay, or straight, or live with 20 ppl, or not talk to anyone ever again. It's your choice. Your in America. As long as you aren't infringing on other's rights, What's the big deal?

I need a serious hug.
::HUG::
I'm seriously sick of it all.

"I can not remain with out you. Without you, all my life is lost. And I CAN NOT REMAIN WITH OUT YOU! WITH OUT YOU, ALL MY LIFE IS LOST!"-Inked Blood

So I went to Unity today...

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 03:51:37 GMT

M-AZING! :-D It's awesome. Students r coool, it's in the woods. I'll prolly be able to work with reptiles there, the food's good. Only drawback, is that it's pretty expensive. But everything should go smooth, should i get accepted.....While riding up there, we passaed a gas station, and 1 guy was filling up his truck. and in the truck bed was a Deer O_O. lol i almost shat myself. it was nuts...lol. i felt like such a city kid out there, but at the same time, i felt at home. The ppl up there r wicked nice and motivated and enjoying what their doing. Soooo cool. I ended up meeting these 4 girls and a guy. Sam, Jess, Liz and Carina(they wrote their e-mails down incase i has n e Q's) :-P I got to checkout dorm rooms and stuff.....very fun stuff. So yea...Rob might end up in Maine this time next year. I'll miss all my Mass friends, but it should be cool. Definatly an awesome experience.

Okie...now life matters....Yea...kinda wanna ask maggie out. but part of me is like noooo...college is like right here...and then the other parts like...blarg shut up and just do it. idk....such stupidity can only be the product of my mind. She invaded my neck hole O_O....u prolly wont understand that...but it'd make u gag...trust me. And there's someone else i like who's single now...and she's cool. but blarg...im so torn...Whatever i do...someones gonna get hurt....i'd rather it be me then one of them.
blarg

Rob

I got 2 fortunes....

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 04:57:48 GMT

I got 2 wicked random fortunes in cookies today...
"Be prepared to accept a wonderous oppertunity in the days ahead."....O_o ROFL yea right....

"You are greatful for the small pleasures of life." ....more true, but i didnt need a cookei to tell me that. i noticed it today when i was out in the wood digging a hole for environmental sciences. kelsy and rhenea went back to the car to get the tape measure and so i just lied down in the leaves and looked up. The sun was setting, the trees were barren of leaves. It was just serene. The sky was beautiful, the leaves were relativly soft and i was content. most ppl hate lying down on the ground for a min...but i must layed there for like 5 min. i wish i coulda stayed longer. i love how simple things make me happy.

Rob

"Am I loud and clear, or am I breakin up?
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?"-Rise Against

:-D

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 06:24:39 GMT

Things turned out better then i could have ever hoped. I'm so happy right now....:-D. Yea....okie okie....that is all i really had to say.
Rob

P.S.YES!

Whoa....

Sat, 04 Nov 2006 02:53:56 GMT

Tonight was a drain...and yea..ontop of it, i got a aknowledgment from someone i miss mucho...but im still a bit mad at....but i can't be made at her because i love(d) her. and blarg im just turned upside down and inside out. I want to just be cool again, but i'm not smart enough to figure this one out. I can't even trust myself. I wish i could just be friends and forget the past and start a new slate, but the past is what makes up the present, and the future is unfolding before us. so will i learn from my own naive-ness? could i possibly figure this one out....i dont know.....i just dont know....:::tears:::
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