Fountain Of Youth?....
Me
bloodpython
What is the key to living as long as possible? What's the secret to spending the most amount of time in this life? How could I live forever?

How bout asking some other questions...like... How can I make the most out of the time I have? What could I be doing to make myself and others more happy? Is someone in need of help, that I could help?

I drove the backstreets of quincy. Cool, brisk, almost cold air wizzes by. A cool August evening, the sun had just set and cars comming towards me had blazing lights like small suns trapped in plastic boxes. In my mind I'm going over how the days events had unfolded. Maybe not perfect, but then again how many days are? Overall a decent day. So many different feelings and thoughts in one short time. I can't seem to overcome the question, What am I doing with my life. People always say "Ya know? I wanna do something meaningful with my life." but then never make any effort to do that.

I continued on my path, no particular destination.. Just going. My own small suns shown upon a tree. Nothing out of the ordinary. But it struck me. Semi-concealed by the surrounding homes, it seemed a portrait of pre-historic rebellion, raising out of our cement coated world. It twisted and contorted in an upward spiral with vines and leaves covering it's coarse outter "shell". Just for the moment, it seemed like a cave-man in a chrome room. Unsure of it's surroundings and just distinctly out of place.

The lights had shown on it for a second, maybe two tops. To think that it has been on this earth longer then I have still baffles me. I think I'm so damn important. going out living my life, havin a good day or a bad day. In the grand scheme, it wont really matter whether i ate a snickers or a payday....wether i got there 5 min early or 10 min late. This tree is sitting there watching us come and go. Births, children growing, moving out and becomiung adults, then dieing. It's watched them with their ambitions and goals pass it by a million times. It grows slowly but surely everyday. Slowly expanding it's reach towards the sky, making it's way toward it's goal. Never giving up.

My trapped orbs of energy pass over this portrait and continue on their journey. I'm left with so much to contemplate...I cant organize it all in the right ways. But I want to be like that tree. Slowly working my way towards my goal, no matter how far away it is.

Lyrics...
Me
bloodpython
"Eye Of The Storm"-Killsiwtch Engage

"After all this time
I stand by you
Through all of the years
I've been with you

Through pain and affliction
With every addiction
I will never let you down

I will live by this code!
Never surrender
You and I are one

Through the eye
Of the storm
You are never alone
Even through, the shadows
You are never alone


After all this time
Still you struggle
Even words of love
Ring so hollow

I have no regrets
I have no remorse
And if you falter
I wont let you down


Through the eye
Of the storm
You are never alone
Even through, the shadows
You are never alone


Come on

Together we stand
Never fall
No matter the trial
We will overcome
Together we stand
Never fall
No matter the Trial
We will overcome

Through the eye
Of the storm
You are never alone
Even through, the shadows
You are never alone


Never
Together we stand
Never fall
No matter the trial
We will overcome
We will overcome"

"Do You Think Dallas Is Still In The Slammer?"-Flee The Seen

"Your sitting right across the room
I wish you only knew.
How Beautiful,
You are!
...
And you're not alone."

"Killing Lonliness"-HIM

"With the venomous kiss you gave me.
I'm killing lonliness.[killing lonliness]
With the warmth of your arms you saved me.
Oh, I'm killing lonliness with you."

"Right Here In My Arms"-HIM

"She is smilin' like heavens down on earth.
The Sun is shining, So bright on her.
.....
She'll be right here in my arms, So in love.
She'll be right here in theses arms she can't let go.
She'll be right here in my arms, So in love.
She'll be right here in theses arms she can't let go."-HIM

so yea, about that....
Me
bloodpython
whole last post is now null and void. I realised some things and I'm done with waiting for this to happen before i do something. Try to live it up. Ya never know when your time will be up. so why wait? take adavantage of life and try to live it up.

AKA me and kim r now dating and we make each other very happy. screw college and it's disruptive ways.

Today was my "graduation party". turned out to be me and ty hiking around in ponkapoag. then Evans, Abby and Greg showed up. good times. then danny and kim and everyone went to gordo's for moonbounce...yeap yeap. it was fun. but through it all, i can't believe high school is over. graduation is in less then 10 hours.

I'm so mixed. I'm so excited that school is over and happy that i dont have n e more high school bs to deal with. but on the other hand...right at this moment, i just feel like cryin. idk y. there isnt one thing that's bothering me. idk. it's just wierd. just wierd.

Rob

"Follow me there. A beautiful somewhere. A place that I can share with you."-YellowCard

" I can not remain without you. Without you, all my life is lost."-Inked In Blood

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Me
bloodpython
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v615/bloodpython/life.jpg


yea...

randomness..
Me
bloodpython
So this is just a random blathering. Just a rant about nothing that is completley meaningless in comparrisson to my others.
The weather outside = crappy. So I'm stuck inside, and it's cold in my house and there isn't really much to do. I totally bombed pre-calculas last quarter. 58. ugh. And I love how my entire highschool carreer is being judged on this one grade. all my parents can eat, breath, or sleep is a failing grade in pre-calculas. I'm still passing for the quarter, but they cant get over that one grade. blah.
To go right along with that, my parents feel that it's not wise to make an investment in my going to college. They feel that because of that one quarter grade, that i'm gonna flunk out and that im a waste of their money. So im not so sure im going to college.yea. way to be a burnout.

Rob

neglected...
Me
bloodpython
Yea..I've kind of neglected my Lj, the last couple of weeks...but I have to get some stuff of my chest...not in this post...but there will be one to come soon. but it's gonna be private cause im not quite sure how i feel about it. so yea.... I'm off to contemplate stuff.
Rob

-<3+

yea...
Me
bloodpython
I wanna make a shirt....on the front it will say

Sorry Vegans...

and the back will say...

...I don't date people with eating dissorders!


ROFL
Rob

So yea...
Me
bloodpython
Rob's kinda lonley. Sometimes i just wish i had someone to cuddle with. I miss just sittin on the couch and either having someone in my arms, or being in someone elses. I'm a cuddlebug. On an upside, it's starting to stay light out past 4pm :-). summer isn't that far away. I miss it! i need a job->money->Skateboard. yea.
::hug::
Rob

An Attempt....
Me
bloodpython
So it's definatly been a while since I posted in here. I've been accepted to Unity College in Maine(my first and favorite choice). I'm very very ready to be moved out and away from the rents. they r starting to bother the living hell out of me. I'm very over the cold weather and ready for summer. Relationships aren't really a good idea at this point in time with so much changing. a lot of hurt can come out of it. and idk if it's worth it right now.

Around every corner is something new.
Everyday i see a series of events...and an array of things that go on that are baffling. and today i was just standin in my bathroom. Just took a moment to breath and think. didn't really focus on anything spacific, just let my eyes wander. and then i came upon the mirror. and ended up looking into my own eyes for about 5 min. It's amazing how we can "tell the truth" or see a persons "true intentions" by looking them in the eye. But when i looked myself in the eye today, i didnt feel any of that. It was more confusion. more questions than answers. What is thought? And how is it i can 'think something through'?What is this state of being? What I'm seeing right now, is it actually occuring? If our brain controls touch and pain and everything, can we find a way to think past it? Is there a way to detach yourself from everything that is now? Why am I here? and the other cliche ones too. It seemed so confusing.

Then I thought about Biology. I'm not sure why, but i thought of how small the things we'r made up of are. and how in the 'smallest' task we do, we'r actually creating massive change in ourselves and our surroundings. But we dont take that into considderation and i'm not quite sure that we should. I mean we could be taking it for advantage. but what is like other then taking opertunities for advantage and having fun with it.If we sit here and think of all the possible outcomes of our future actions, those actions will never happen and they'll remain another possibilty, instead of a reality.

True Love and Acceptance.
So many people claim that they 'love all people' regardless of race, background, lifestyle choice, clique or any other variable u want to drag into this. But in reality, everyone holds prejudice. I'm not saying it's okie or that it's good, cause in most cases it's not. People are misleading when they say, i have nothing against them. but then would never even consider spending an afternoon with some one of that ::insert catagory here::.
Oh, I have nothing against gays.
But I don't want anything to do with them
Oh, Colored people are perfectly fine with me.
But I don't want my son/daughter dating/marrying one.
I am a very religious person. The Bible says that I should love everyone so I do.
But, the bible also teaches me that i Should shun/drive out anyone who doesn't fit a certain mold.

I really just dont want to hear it anymore. You are a hypocrit, You dont like ::insert a catagory::'s because you've been given false information and lead up on un-educated tradition.
Some people say to respect your elders. Sometimes your elders are plain out wrong. Sometimes they breed more hate into our lives then we could create in a lifetime. The bible is a double edged sword. yes you can learn your basic morals from it with stories. But, in general it's a load of made up crap that to many people take seriously. People let it engulf them and a lot of the stories are telling you to hate people for one reason or another. People barely get along as it is. We don't need another book telling us who to hate.

If people took all the hate their putting out right now today, and put out love instead. Helped out someone in need, did something to help someone, anyone. I think that a lot of the problems that we find today wouldn't be as "detrimental"(sp?).

Sometimes the smallest smile could save someone
Everyday people have to deal with a miread of problems in their everyday life and they just can't seem to find a reason to smile. But if you get the ball rolling, by smiling at someone, it's contagious. You could be brightening someones whole day. Sometimes all a person needs is aknowledment, to know that someone knows ur alive and cares. Sometimes a day could be made by ur smile. believe it or not, a smile has made my day before. one smile. one 1/2 second of that persons day made all 86,400 seconds of mine.(yea i broke out the calculator).


Just think about it.

Rob

RANDOM DREAMS!
Me
bloodpython
Okie...well the first one.... I went to my ex's ccollege dorm room...and i was like TAB what'r u doing here?....and she was just like...oh whatever...but she was at UMASS Dartmouth...so i started walkin around the campus because i thoght i'd be a cool kid and do that.....And i randomly bought a skateboard.,...i went to the cafeteria and there was this broken table.....and it was kinda like a teeter totter...so me and this kid jumped on at the same time... and we thought it'd work...but we just broke the table in 1/2....so i was like...DAMN!....and then....I walked over to my mum and picked up the skateboard I bought and it like broke...i wasn't even riding it....the end just broke off in my hand and i was like...damn i just bought this thing...stupid thing.. and then i wasd like skrew this...and i started walking away...when i saw my friend's who skateboard outside....i was like...WTF are you all doing here?! and they were like....we'r here to see GWAR! and I was like O_O GWAR'S PLAYING!? and they all sayd yes...so i ran over to the place where the concert wass....and it was in some random alley inbetween two buildings...but it was a big alley...not one of those 4' wide ones...and the stage was on one side and the crowd was gathering on the other....so i ran up...and then one of the dude's from GWAR was like...Hey...we need someone to play guitar...canh u? and i was like O_o Sure...but I then realised that idk how to play n e of there songs...but i just went backstage and there was GWAR playing from a radio...and some random lady sitting in the corner painting a guitar with the whole band on it...so i started to get into costume...so i went to pull my sock up..but it had a hole in it...and my big toe popped out of the sock...and i was like O_O AHHHH and i pulled it off then i woke up and it was like 7 am lol

Then i went back to sleep.....and i dreamt that i was just riding this random BMX bike down North Mainstreet in my town... And I was just enjoying my leisurly ride when all of a sudden i look and over on the sidewalk is a bear...like a BIG ASS BEAR!! and so i stopped....and it kept on walking...so i was like O_o maybe he's just a crazy bear....so i started to ride again and he started chasing me...so i rode faster and he kept catching up...so i jumped off the bike and picked the bike up and like swung it at him....and he walked in the other direction....so i got back on my bike and he started chasing me again....and this time i just jumped off my bike and srwung it at him...and by now, a group of ppl where gathering around to watch this stupid bear....and i was like...U IDIOTS!! THAT'S A BEAR!!! RUN AWAY...and they were all just like looking at it...and it didn't attack them...so i was like WTF maybe it was just a coincidence...so i started to ride back towards my house....
bloodpythonMA: but then he started chasing me again so i like flipped out and jumped off my bike and ran towards these random buildings...and my friend jess was just walking in the parking lot and i was like RUNNNNN RUNNN!!! and she was just walking like an emo kid and the bear was like walking up to her and i was like O_O RUN!!!!! and the bear like reared up on it's hind legs...and just grabbed her hand and walked with her into the building i was in front of...i was like ????????? and then i woke up and it was 10 am....X_x

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